Gym Today :(

Kinda sad I might not be able to go to the gym today. The one near my house that I go to has weird hours and I have to go to a luncheon during the whole time it will be open :/

Also, I've started to notice that now, if I'm going to pay for gym, I need to care even more about that I put into my body. No point in undoing all my work over one poor food choice.

New Food Journal!

AWWWW YEAH
Coincidentally, I bought a food journal today! I had been meaning to get one, but I didn't think I would get one so soon. And to start the new year off double right, I wrote down EVERYTHING i consumed, including the less than healthy dinner my dad made. I know I know, writing stuff down doesn't seem like a big deal, but every one knows (gurl/ guys don't play) that you never want to write anything down that makes you seem less than perfect....and that fried chicken and macaroni and cheese dinner did JUST that. But, that's ok. Being healthy doesn't get messed up because I chose to eat a special meal that my pops will probably not make for another year. Being healthy gets messed up when I start acting like I'll never see soda, candy, fried food, starch and sugar again and, that being the case, it's now my sole mission in life to consume every morsel of food falling in the sample size of unhealthy food that I just named a whenever I decide to breathe. 

LAWRDY

and after all that calorie counting, scale watching, rabbit food eating tom foolery, i ended up weighing 201.2 this morning.

wake up call? eh, HELL YES!

I need to stop being obsessed with the numbers and start trying to be healthy again. It was more fun, less stressful, and i'm pretty sure I'll be able to keep the weight off that way.

Oh Hey There...COLLEGE

SOOOOOOOOOOO.....err.....college has really changed things.
I started out still trying to be into eat healthy, but I let my workout go.....
Then I let EVERYTHING go.....
AND NOW IM TRYING TO GET IT ALL BACK!!!!!!

(this is hard y'all)


BUT

I CAN...NO.....WILL do it!!! :)))))))))

It was fun prancing around feelin skinn(ier) and now i just feel like crap. I DONT LIKE IT


Turning point: buying a scale....
So i bought a scale (which turns out it didnt work) and I thought that i gained way more than the freshman 15 (i mean i still dont know but....) that made me angry.... i mean hella angry. All the stuff i was eating and all the time i was spending not working out were not better than the way i felt when i was prancin around feeling good about myself.

I wanted to reach my goal weight by the time i went back home for thanksgiving and while that probs wont happen, I can still get back down to my pre-college weight so Im planning on doing that.

Ive revamped my habits and my attitude


Watch out ya'll!!!

I really wanted to get my JM DVD and that new jump rope today :(

I'm starting to get a little too caught up in the whole scale thing.


I may need to scale back a little (get it?)

A 320 Calorie Snafu

I am pissed at myself. 

I just ate two packets of oatmeal.

It's not that im upset about the oatmeal per say given that it was at least healthy.

Plus, I dont really think eating two packets of oatmeal counts as binging. 

I'm pissed upset because I at two slices of pizza around 5/6:00. That poor decision messed up the rest of my day. 

It wasn't a poot decision bc it was pizza. It was a poor decision because I ate a super high calorie dinner during a time when I just eat a snack so i can have dinner later. 

I dont usually eat pizza so it was a fun meal, which i have no problem eating every now and then. I'm a little peeved that today, a fruits and veggies, was interrupted by eating pizza. I figured that I would have been depriving myself it I had tortured myself by not eating something that I don't eat too often (not including the lower cal pizza mini meals I had this week) and I would have just been miserable. No food is off limits and the restaurant that makes it is really good so I knew it would be worth the splurge. 

The only problem was that I had only eaten 4 times today after I had ate the pizza so naturally, I was expecting to eat again, but I was already over on calories. My body is used to eating on this schedule and it's been really beneficial...just not right now.

Next time, I will do one slice of pizza and a salad. 

Mark my words!

Less pissed, but I glad I understood why it happened.

I'm making progress

Broken Legs and Heartburn

Have you ever heard someone talk about a broken leg and then suddenly your leg started hurting. Well looking at the pizza I was about to eat for dinner just gave me heartburn.........smh.

why is my body so smart?

Motivation Pic

http://fitisthenewbeautiful.tumblr.com/post/8721559374

For some reason, seeing people that are super duper fit and super duper tiny is kinda discouraging at this stage in my weight loss, but they are no where near my current weight. I'm making healthy progress, but this pictures are a huge jump.... :(

Frustated

I'm starting to get a lil' frustrated right now.
The number on the scale did change, just not as much as all the craziness it was doing last week.
Still going to do mostly fruits and veggies today (i guess really just no meat).
But this, time I'm going to focus on making it a lifestyle change, bc that's the only weigh (get it?) I'm going to be able to loose weight without calorie counting this year.

I'm not dieting, I'm just eating healthily

Today Was Not A Fail. Today Was Not A Fail. Today Was Not A Fail....

Today Was Not A Fail.
I learned a lot.
1) I had to subsidize my efforts otherwise I definitely would not have eaten enough food. (even though i still didn't, that helped a lot)
2) I didnt eat meat all day. I just realized that around 9:00
3) No heart burn
4) I was perkier today
5) I had trouble making myself eat more food. I don't know if I can go strictly vegetarian because of that.

Today was good.

I'm definitely going to incorporate more fruits and veggies into my food.

Detox Day

Today is a fruits and veggies detox day. These past couple of workout sessions coupled with pre-exsisting lack of desire to work out on the weekends and my eat habits (which havent really gotten bad like at all....just a little off) have put off my game. One of the bloggers I follow posted about a fruits and veggies detox and I figured it couldn't hurt. I'll be eating healthy and my sodium intake will go way down (thank the Lord Jesus). I'll just have to make sure I'm eating enough fruits and veggies. That'll be the hardest thing bc i'll have to eat a lot more food than I normally do/ like to do b/c the food I got was pretty low cal. I picked up this huge container of watermelon which is really good, but it's really high in sugar, but I'll just have to get over that for today. I'll also get my mind right again, but staying away from processed foods today (ie sweets and wanting to consume everything that looks like it has sugar in it).

It's a wonderful thing that fruits taste really sweet!

I have no idea why i've been craving "junk" food these past couple of days....

I Hate You Scale..... :/

The number is starting to creep back up.

Salt intake has a been a little high lately.

That BETTER be the reason why........

Motivation Pic

I dont really know how motivating it is for me to see pics of thin people. I dont even think I want to be a small as them.
Waking up every morning and staring at myself in the mirror does more for me than looking at pics of other people.
I dont want to be like them.

I just want to be a thinner, healthier, fit me.

D***********t

I just had a late LATE snack.
I'm upset bc I can usually controll myself.
I wanted something sweet (i wanted one of those slim-a-bear klondike bar to be exact) like an hr ago be we ran out.....but i still wanted something sweet.
It's no that the oatmeal is bad is just that's its late and in theory, I would need to stay up to like midnight to try and burn some of this off, which means that I wont get enough sleep.


I that feel like now that i've gotten my eating habits under control, when i go do stuff like this, it makes me feel like i've just binged....and CLEARLY I haven't


; (

I wish i had more jello..... it's sweet like a treat, but sweet enough to the point that it's almost too sweet to eat a whole serving size at one time. A whole box is only 40 calories and I can usually make that last throughout a whole day

A Wrench In My Plans

Today I found out some bad news. But, that's ok.... I'll just have to modify my work out regiment. I don't know if I'm going to keep up the rate at which the pounds are falling off, but THEY WILL FALL OFF. It just may take longer ; )

The Glass was 3/4 Empty Today

July Weight Report

Overall this was a pretty (what was left of this) month. The last time I officially weighed myself-as in accepted the number by writing it down- I was 195 and that was several weeks ago. Since then, when I went to the gym, I would weigh myself and again be frustrated that the number 1) didn't change and 2) always said 190 or 198/9. 

I felt like I wasn't making progress. 

And then, something MAGICAL happened!......Well a couple of things.

I started to breather and read fitness and weight loss blogs for motivation AND I bought "The Dorm Room Diet" book by Daphne Oz and literally everything changed. I got my mindset right. I got my eating habits habits. I became more motivated to go to the gym. I bought a scale for my house that actually worked (always use an electronic one for the most accuracy, but remember, a scale can't tell you how healthy you are!) DRD helped better pick the foods I was eating, break the relationship that food has with my emotions, and gave me hope that loosing weight in college is completely doable if I just make it a priority. Daphne lost 30 pounds herself and has been able to keep it and guess what? SHE DOESN'T EVEN COUNT CALORIES!!!!! But before you fall out of your chair, she is a vegetarian who tries to stay away from processed foods so why should she? (Think about that.....)

But the biggest difference has been my eating habits. I now try to eat 5-6 200+/- calorie meals a day and it really does work. I don't eat as much, I'm full, I'm re-training my body to go longer without food (for classes next year) and I'm also training myself to not give into the temptations I face when I a) want to eat when I'm not scheduled to or b) want to eat something that isn't as healthy when it isn't a fun meal day. 

I said hadn't been weighing myself and that true, but that doesn't mean I wasn't still trying to be healthy and do the right thing and eat better. I was just doing a half-ass job at it. But I was still loosing weight and when I got on the new electronic scale that I bought, I had somehow managed to loose another 8 pounds! I knew my body physically looked different, but now, the number on the scale also said something different!

Now, all of this has pretty much happened since last week so this has been a big couple of days for me and overall, I've been pretty good about sticking to the goals I have set for myself. We had a little trouble with the unplanned fun eating, hey!, that's ok. I'm still getting better at it. I even went for a run (well jog really and it was on the treadmill) for 30 mins on my reward day (I know, some reward right?0 and I was able to go for the whole 30 mins straight. I may not be burning as many calories as I was when I was powering through my intense cardios intervals, but I really like to run and this way I am catching my body of guard by doing something new. I may have to stay longer as the gym for right now just to get the same amount of calories burnt off, but I figure if I jog everyday, I'll get better at is and it eventually wont take as long to burn what I need to burn AND its better to stay longer now during the summer versus trying to stay for hours during the school year (because, honestly, it won't happen...I just won't have the time).

My confidence has gone WAAAAAAAAY up this past week y'all. I mean skyrocketed out of the stratosphere high. And, I don't plan on slowing down :)

My Virtual Before and Afters!!!

My Virtual Model, http://www.mvm.com/cs/, is this really cool website that can show you before and afters if you didnt take your starting weight pics like me or if you just want to see the progress you have made.

                   HW:217                                        SW:187.5                                      

GW:140

Do It Afraid

Went to a reception. The whole car ride there I was super nervous about trying to meet people, but you what happened instead? I had a lot of fun, made some new friends, and had a great time.

I guess I spent all that time worrying about nothing.

Some things in life are too important to just give up. I've worked my butt off to get here and I'm not going to let myself hold me back anymore.

So, from now on out, I'll guess I'll just have to either be excited to go jump into a new situation or I'm gonna get my butt to go do it afraid because I deserve whatever it is that I'm going after.
I've got two options, but either way I'm going to get it done. I'm going to get it done well.

Today was a lot of fun!