10.4

l spent an hr at the gym today! Pretty proud of myself for sticking it out. On days where I don't have class or morning class, I'm going to try and bump up to 60 mins instead of 30. I was a little bummed that my food schedule was a little off today. I bought a ton of fresh veggies for 2 meals today and I ended up making a new friend (yay) who wanted to go out to lunch so I was kinda stuck with not being able to cook. I guess it's fine. I just hate spending money on going out when the only things I can usually order vegetable-wise are a couple of dishes drenched in sauces, oil and salt (such a waste of money), but making new friends is always good so it was worth it. After my work out, I wasn't feeling super hungry so I could grabbed some almonds and sweet potatoes for dinner. Not the worst food day and certainly not the best. I started drinking this new tea today and I think it's supposed to help curb my appetite which is why I'm not super hungry now. I'll see how this first round goes. I definitely don't want to find shortcuts for loosing weight, but since I drink tea every day, I figured it wouldn't hurt to at least try it. It definitely won't be sustainable in the long run (I'm leaving at the end of the semester so buying it would be nearly impossible after that) so it may not be worth it. Plus, I feel like I'm cheating and the guilt also isn't worth it. The smoothie I had for breakfast was amazing though. It made me so happy!  I also did my first weigh-in today. I've lost about 3 pounds since I've been here. Mixed feelings about it. On the one hand, I haven't gained any weight, which is a complete 180, but, on the other, I thought I had lost more, but that might be a little irrational. My clothes were fitting super loosely after I washed them and, while I do think I've lost something (inches, weight, idk) in my things, my stomach has stayed about the same, which kinda bums me out. On the same hand though, I'm literally only doing cardio so there's not much I can say. I'm worried that if I try and tack on too many things, I'll get overwhelmed and quit so I'd rather nail down going to use the treadmill every day before I start doing abs, weights, squats ect because that's happened in the past a lot. I also haven't been working out regularly or really eating enough to keep my body at a healthy calorie intake until these past 2 weeks so I can't really complain. I'm also tying to figure out how much of my initial weight loss from my changed to veganism and how much can be attributed to my working out. After about the first 20 pounds, things have been moving at a much slower pace, which worries me because I still want to hit my goal weight by my birthday. I don't think it's going to happen now because I want to loose weight in a healthy, sustainable way, so I'm going to try to shoot for another 10-15 pounds by January, which seems realistic and healthy as long as I eat properly and work out regularly  I figure I can loose the rest of the weight over the course of spring semester since to help keep me focused and my fitness goals. It will only be another 20-30 pounds at the point. I've gained the most weight/ had the most unhealthiest habits in those two places so I want to prove to myself that I can loose weight and stay on track and not getting out of control again despite being back in those same two environments. Did much better with my cravings today. I don't really think I had any :)