10.6

The tea I bought made me disgustingly sick all day yesterday and left me with no appetite today :/ I loss 4 pounds from yesterday to today and I could barely get down the vegetables I made for lunch and dinner because I didn't want them to spoil and they were expensive. The pollution is also really bad here today, which made me break out a little :/ I'm really committed to get my weight and skin under control before I go back home and I just felt kind bummed out today. I was not happy with the way I looked. I did, however, splurge and buy something to help with my acne since I don't think my US stuff is strong enough and I also got something to help with teeth whitening, vitamins (I've gone without them for a month because I ran out. Even though they aren't the same kind that I use back home, it's better than nothing and I could read the label lol), an emory board for my nails, socks, and a scarf. All things that I needed. I also walked around the mall today, which made me happy because 1) I saw a ton of things I wanted to buy which is going to help keep me motivated to save as much money as  I can and go shopping right before I leave and 2) because I saw stuff that I could easily fit into. Non-scale victory. 4 years ago, after I gained all that weight, I could barely find anything in markets that would fit. I've already bought a dress from a department store which is awesome. I'm hoping the acne stuff I bought helps....My hyper pigmentation is getting better but getting new acne always makes it harder to clear my skin up because it's so sensitive. No gym today. I just didn't have the stomach to do it. I've also been putting off doing work/ facing my future and I'm going to make myself start looking for an internship tonight and doing my homework. I've been putting it off for days, and while I am excited to be here/ look for a job, it's just a lot of pressure and I know failing to either is not an option. Plus I stress out easily which doesn't help. I think I'm going to go the bakery and grab some fresh bread and warm coke for my stomach. I had an early dinner, but I don't want the veggies to be the last thing in my stomach for today. I'm probably just being greedy, but it went down fine the first time when I had it for breakfast and my stomach is kinda upset from lunch and dinner. Tonight is going to be a long night. I'm probably never going to drink that tea again haha.